11:50 pm
So it looks like I will be up late tonight, doing homework of course. I just finished my econ and my mother is helping me finish in math by doing it for me, which is completely out of the norm. When in school I am very independent and a workaholic, not because I prefer to do so, but because it is a necessity. I get so much homework I feel I fail if I do not do it on my own, but since this bladder infection has thus kicked me in my tush I must say "I need help!" I recently realized I don't like needing "help" I guess it just puts my Aquarian sign out there, "independent" yes at most times I am. I feel I have to take everything on at full throttle to ge tit done, by myself of course. I honestly don't like myself when I'm in school, I change a decent amount, I am no longer as optimistic I'm more negative in fact. My stress level increases, I have less time for relax time(especially now) I have less patients or desire to wait on anyone, I am no longer that free spirit as I was in summer, it saddens me greatly. I miss my long days of doing nothing but studying wicca, magick, witchcraft, talking to my boyfriend, be positve. It's hard on me, but I know it is getting closer and closer to over, Nick has been a great support letting me know to "do" my homework, and that it will be over quickly, my mom and dad as well.
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2:29 am
*UPDATE*
I have now finished my grammar, and my mom has finally finished my math and is onto history, I am onto my final draft of my expository essay, I decided to write it about Wicca, but it's not as easy as I thought it might be, so much information and all. Nick is off with friends and I am droning on with this mundaness, I am getting tired but I am getting there, though I doubt I will make it to my second class tomorrow, lol, with the break in between I might crash. Getting back to work now, I might add on more update.
Comments (3)
I hope that you get to feeling better soon!
@Broom_Service - Thank you ever so much
have a great weekend!